I have been wanting to write a bit more on this highly unknown and commonly misunderstood infection called "Myocarditis". This is the silent monster that suddenly and unexpectedly took our daughter's life without but a whisper of a warning (a slight fever).
Wikipedia defines Myocarditis like this:
The definition of myocarditis varies, but the central feature is an infection of the heart, with an inflammatory infiltrate, and damage to the heart muscle, withoutthe blockage of coronary arteries that define a heart attack (myocardial infarction) or other common noninfectious causes. Myocarditis may or may not include death (necrosis) of heart tissue. It may include dilated cardiomyopathy.
Because a definitive diagnosis requires a heart biopsy, which doctors are reluctant to do because they are invasive, statistics on the incidence of myocarditis vary widely.
The consequences of myocarditis thus also vary widely. It can cause a mild disease without any symptoms that resolves itself, or it may cause chest pain,heart failure, or sudden death. An acute myocardial infarction-like syndrome with normal coronary arteries has a good prognosis. Heart failure, even with dilated left ventricle, may have a good prognosis. Ventricular arrhythmias and high-degree heart block have a poor prognosis. Loss of right ventricular function is a strong predictor of death.
We just received a copy of the medical examiner's report on Vienne's case and autopsy. I had requested it only because I wanted written confirmation of this myocarditis thing. All we had known was what Mark had interpreted from a conversation with them over the phone, many months ago. I wanted to make sure that he heard everything correctly. What I DID NOT want was a play by play of the events of that day. But, naive-little-me, not thinking clearly...that is exactly what we got. And, like a moth drawn to a flame, I couldn't help but read it and keep reading it, page after gruesome page. IT. WAS. HORRIBLE. Why did I do this to myself???!!! It was seriously one of the most STUPID things I have ever done...and yet, I couldn't stop. As if I enjoy punishing myself further. There were new things in the report that I didn't even know about...or remember. Little details that the investigators and examiner look for and pick up on. Things like: my spilt smoothie all over the bathroom floor...of which I have NO recollection of. The fact that they noted that my arms were free from scratches...as they were looking for the possibility that I had drowned her (read the tab at the top of the page to get the whole story of that day if you don't know it already). The fact that they noted how well-kept Ivy was - clean and healthy and nicely dressed. They noted Vienne's clean finger and toenails - neatly trimmed and painted with pale green nail polish. ...That's enough.
Anyway, the point of bringing that up is because on the cause of death they wrote "ACCIDENT". That's it. Then, next to it they have a space that says: "Significant Indicators/Factors: Right Ventricle EPI/Myocarditis
" (from what I've looked up, EPI = episode). If you thoroughly read the definition above, the last sentence says "loss of right
ventricular function is a strong predictor of death
". A few sentences before that it says "Heart failure, even with dilated left
ventricle, may have a good
prognosis." Vienne's right
ventricle was inflamed ("inflamed" was the word they used to describe it to Mark over the phone). First, it of course pisses me off that the damn infection went to her right
ventricle...the side that would more likely cause death. And, secondly, it pisses me off that they still write "Accident" even after that documented fact about her Right ventricular myocarditis! The ONLY reason they admitted to us for documenting it as an "Accident" is because she was found in the tub...EVEN though they revealed to us that she showed absolutely NO signs of drowning or struggling. They cannot prove that it was just
the myo that took her life. I have shared this all before. I try to ignore that word...Accident
. For "accident" says it's my fault. I try. I try. I try to ignore it.
What I want to adamantly clarify in this post is that Vienne did NOT have a faulty heart that was just waiting to go into distress. People around us still don't seem to understand this thing as we have just never heard of it before. Myocarditis is an infection
in the heart. It is typically caused by viruses or bacteria or even some parasites. But, most commonly it is caused by a virus (and not just one specific virus...there is a whole list of viruses that can take infection to the heart!). The person catches a virus, like we ALL
do especially in the winter months (ie: flu virus) and for no known reason, no predisposition, the virus can head straight to the heart and bring infection to it. Just like a flu or cold can happen to anyone, so can this. The influenza virus can even
cause this...can take the infection to the heart. Why? There is not a known reason. But, once the heart is attacked, this monster of an infection works QUICKLY. Lightning speed quick. Obviously, because we had NO CLUE.
Now there are cases of myocarditis all over the internet and I am becoming more and more familiar with it as I continue to read. This infection does not
always lead to death. Many have survived it. But, fighting it is tough and many have had to have heart transplants. Some people, the lucky ones, get symptoms and signs that something serious is going wrong. These symptoms can include:
The signs and symptoms associated with myocarditis are varied, and relate either to the actual inflammation of the myocardium, or the weakness of the heart muscle that is secondary to the inflammation. Signs and symptoms of myocarditis include:
- Chest pain (often described as "stabbing" in character)
- Congestive heart failure (leading to edema, breathlessness and hepatic congestion)
- Palpitations (due to arrhythmias)
- Sudden death (in young adults, myocarditis causes up to 20% of all cases of sudden death)
- Fever (especially when infectious, e.g. in rheumatic fever)
- Symptoms in infants and toddlers tend to be more nonspecific, with generalized malaise, poor appetite, abdominal pain, and/or chronic cough. Later stages of the illness will present with respiratory symptoms with increased work of breathing, and is often mistaken for asthma.
Since myocarditis is often due to a viral illness, many patients give a history of symptoms consistent with a recent viral infection, including fever, rash, diarrhea, joint pains, and easy fatigueability.
I am now a member of a group on Facebook called the Myocarditis Foundation. This is a group that is aiming to bring awareness to myocarditis, fund research, and provide online support to those who have lost loved ones or to those who suffer from this condition. I have read MANY many sad stories. The ones who have lost loved ones to this have been unexpected and sudden, just like Vienne. From most of the stories of loss that I have read they at least had some ounce of a warning that led them to take their child or loved one to the hospital. But, even in most stories like that, they still lost their loved one almost immediately after arriving at the hospital. Typically, doctors do not know what is going on. They think it's pneumonia or the flu so they don't react appropriately and then suddenly, without warning, the person's heart stops. They don't discover the myocarditis until they perform the autopsy. There was one story of a young boy named Logan who passed away and his passing was just as sudden and without warning as Vienne's. He was playing in the living room with his sister; his mom went upstairs briefly to get their coats and shoes to go somewhere; when she returned downstairs, he was sitting slumped over his legs. CPR and medics could not help. He had JUST been to the doctor's for a regular check up just 2 days prior, with a clean bill of health! Nothing detected. But, when they performed the autopsy they discovered that his heart was inflamed 75% it's normal size! (You can read his story here
). That is the only story I have found that is most similar to mine...everything seemed fine, we each momentarily left the room, and our children suddenly died in our absence. :(
I have just learned of a local little girl, in Troutdale, OR, who is in the hospital right now fighting for her life because of myocarditis. A friend of mine directed me to her FB page and I have been following the daily updates on her progress. It is seeming that she is of the lucky ones who is given a chance to fight this...and it looks like she *might be* slowly winning. Her name is Elliott. Elliott's story is that she presented symptoms of vomiting...from what I gather, they were coming home from family trip. She vomited for 3 days and they took her to the hospital on May 11, just a few weeks ago. The doctors didn't know what was wrong with her, but one thing led to another and she stopped breathing and her heart stopped. They worked on resuscitating her for 4 hours...keeping her alive. They performed an echocardiogram and discovered the myocarditis...in her left
ventricle. Shortly thereafter, they determined that it was caused by the influenza virus. From the snippets of things I've read, I have gathered that Elliott's heart, lungs, kidneys, and brain have all been severely affected. She has been on ECMO (which I gather is life support?) this whole time. Just the other day, they successfully took her off of it and her heart is performing at a normal rate! They are now waiting for kidney improvement and brain function amongst several other things. Her battle is definitely not over. Scary crazy isn't it? Please pray for this sweet family. They are a family of believers and they have a battalion of prayer warriors standing by their side...and could always use more.
Of course I am jealous. How could I not be! I look at their story and think that they are going through this horror, yet also getting to watch God perform miracles and they will get to use this story as ministry to God's works for the rest of their lives. God will use their story just as profoundly as He will use Vienne's...but they get to keep their child! So, why didn't I?? I try and I try to find a reason and I don't know if I will ever ever come to settle on one...there will never be a reason to satisfy. I realize that I may just have to swallow and just live with it. It is a difficult thing to reconcile.
So....is there anything that can be done in regards to bringing awareness to myocarditis?? Slowly but surely, there are works in progress. One small effort was recently made which sadly seemed to flop. A family from the Myocarditis Foundation page created a petition to the American Heart Association, requesting that all pediatricians be required to test for Troponin levels in children who have been sick for 1-2 weeks or who arrive in the ER with respiratory or cardiac distress. Troponin is a hormone that rises when the heart is in distress. Raised levels can be detected with a simple blood test. This test would not have helped Vienne in the least, of course...because we had absolutely no reason to bring her in to the doctor. But, this is just a small step. They have to start somewhere. They were only allowed to request this test to be done on children sick for a week. 100, 000 signatures were required by May 31, 2013...and from what I recently checked, there were only 76! I had posted this petition on my FB page and a few friends of mine signed it. Kind of shocking to me to learn how few really care. It is not for my child...she is already dead...it is for your children. Wouldn't you want that peace of mind? If this petition could get passed, the aim is to eventually be able to write more petitions that will require the testing sooner...especially as research continues on this horrible infection. I would post the link to the petition but it has now unfortunately expired because it did not come even close to reaching it's requirements to get passed. :(
In addition to becoming aware of the possibility of this silent unknown killer how can you stay alert to it, for yourself and especially for your children? Well, obviously, from what I've shared and what I've experienced, unfortunately there is not much. What I do NOT want is to create paranoia and panic for you for whenever your child develops a slight fever. We could develop panic and paranoia for every time we get in our cars due to the high statistics of accidents...but we generally don't. What I would say or encourage you to do is to just try to remain extra aware of your children when they are sick. And, by that I mean ask specific questions. Sometimes, I wonder if I had asked Vienne if anything hurt, whether she would have pointed to her chest or something? She did tell me that her tummy hurt...but, maybe it was also her chest? So, maybe when they are sick ask them a string of simple questions, with the aim to evaluate their overall discomfort. And, if you have further suspicions take them to their doctor and perhaps even ask about the possibility of myocarditis and request a troponin test.
Here are some links to more information on Myocarditis if you are curious: