I miss her deeply. The unfairness of it all keeps haunting me. I just want my old life back so so badly. It is such a horror to wake up each day to realize that I am still forced to live my nightmare. I feel like a prisoner. This is my sentence. I will always find ways to discover joy in this prison…I will strive hard to "make the best" of my horrid fate…but I will always want out. I will always want to escape. I will always pine for the life I once had.
So here I am playing and replaying home videos of my girl…striving to bring her light into my prison. It is a sad and happy thing to watch them. Here is this silly video of my precious Vienne playing on the Wii.