Monday, November 26, 2012

Revised "Results"

This is an addendum to the previous post titled, "Results" which explained the lack of results found from her toxicology tests.  We were told that nothing had been found.  We were told that they could not find the reason why she slipped under the 6" water and didn't fight for her life.

Well, this past Wednesday, the day before Thanksgiving, Mark received another call from DHS telling him that we should call the coroner's office because there was some newfound information.  I don't know all the details as to why this new information just presented itself...but, at this point, it really doesn't matter.  Well, now, they have found something.  They discovered a mild swelling in the right ventricle of her heart.  They called it 'ventricular myocarditis' - an inflammation of the heart which is typically caused by a viral infection.  Usually, symptoms include chest pain, fever, listlessness...etc.  The only symptoms Vienne showed that morning were a mild fever and a mild tummy ache (which was remedied once she ate breakfast).  They explained to Mark that it was something that a doctor would not even normally discover immediately.  They explained that there was no way we would've been able to know and the swelling was so mild anyway.  But it was there.  And, they explained that that infection and inflammation can cause restriction of blood flow, which in her tiny body could've caused her to either pass out or have a seizure...which explains why she quietly slipped under the water and remained there.  All during the f*%&ing 20 minutes that I decided to go downstairs!  Not before, while she was safely laying in bed...not after she could've gotten out of the tub...but while Mama was out of the room and while she was in the bath.  The anger is obviously still staggering.  We are just angry that we were never even given a chance to fight for discover this heart infection and to help her.  We were cruelly blindsighted.  We were never given a fair chance.  We got nothing!  Nothing but a dead daughter.

The heart infection still was not the cause of her death.  If she was out of the water and passed out or had a seizure, she most likely would've lived.  So, it is still called an "accidental drowning".  Has anyone even heard of such an infection?!  I mean, doesn't it sound like a bad "House" episode...of strange and bizarre illnesses?...except in "House" they usually save the patients.

Of course, one answer leads to 20 questions such as these.  How did her heart get infected?  What kind of a virus?  Was it something I exposed her to?  How does the heart get infected anyway??  Has anyone ever even heard of this?!  Why did it cause her to pass out in the tub?  Why while I was away?  Why does it seem like it was sooooo orchestrated for her to die from such a strange and unheard of cause?!  Why us??  Why us?!!!  WHY US??!!  

So, there's your uplifting news for the day.  Doesn't really help anything.  She's still gone.  We still suffer.


  1. Oh Jenny...this just sucks so bad. I wish things were different. I wish it so, so much for you.

  2. so sorry for your pain and loss Jenny. And the unanswered questions. Praying.

  3. I've been reading up on google and it sounds like myocarditis is a major cause of sudden death in infants and children. It may have been that she would have died no matter what.... I'm suprised they didn't come to that conclusion and still insist on accidental drowning! This is just crazy. I'm so sorry you are having to go through this.

  4. ugh. I wish I could take the unanswered questions away. xoxo