I didn't get to know Vienne much beyond watching her grow via pictures and posts online, we both moved out of Cannon Beach and on our lives continued; but there is one very specific memory that had a huge impact in my life.
I was working at Waves of Grain, and I was in a relationship with a guy that had begun to get pretty serious, the same man I now call my husband. Before then, I never wanted to marry, have kids, or anything simply because I didn't trust people. I had a rough childhood, and didn't want to let anyone close enough, until I met Dave. I was at a point that I either wanted to end the relationship before it got more serious, or take a risk. Stay in the comfort of the coast, or move on to new territory. Then in walked you and Mark and baby Vienne.
You three gave me hope, gave me faith to take a step in my life that has brought me where I am today. Seeing the love, safety, and faith in your relationship gave me hope. Holding Vienne when she was a babe made me want to hold a child of my own. Knowing that a family can be so beautiful, and a child so loved. I remember she wore maybe a pink/orange striped sweater, and she had the biggest eyes full of wonder. She had the love of everyone around her. She was perfect. It was that run in that tipped me over to the side of being vulnerable for love. Soon after, Dave asked me if I wanted to move down to Tahoe so we didn't have to have a long distance relationship, and I said yes. So set the path of our life together, and I now know that was the best decision I've ever made. Seeing you three made me want to have a beautiful family, knowing how beautiful and full of love it could be. Seeing how loved Vienne is, how wonderful and full of life made me want a child of my own.
It's not much, compared to the other stories everyone else must have, but it made the hugest impact in my life, and it's something I've thought about over the years.
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